I had almost given up on ever finding true love.
It was as elusive as trying to grab an eel with your naked palm. All around me in campus everyone seemed to be hooking up. It was July for me every month of the year. Alone and lonely seemed like my two lifetime companions, that I could never shake off. Man, it was hard, hard was even an understatement. I had classes, CATs, exams, assignments to keep me so occupied, yet deep down the only thing I could think about was how alone I was.
After a while, I stopped praying about it all together. It just seemed like I would have to make do with a life alone. It was draining, frustrating and I just gave up. I threw in that relationship towel. It seemed like the last ‘relations’ ship had just left the harbour and I wasn’t in it. Fam, I had literally missed that bus.
And so, I figured that there was no use crying over spilt milk. I had to move on, find something better to spend the remainder of my days. So, I buried my self in studying and serving in ministry. Incidentally, we had a young, vibrant and emerging dance group in church called the Ignitaz that I signed up with. We used to have dance practise everyday in the late afternoon and that gave me the perfect excuse to skip all my afternoon classes. It was so crazy, me rushing out of campus straight after lunch, grabbing a matatu and walking almost 5 kms to church everyday. Then about 4 hours of intensive dance cardio and taking the same route back to school. I used to get back to my room at about 8pm everyday, copy the afternoon’s notes, study, then sleep at about 2am. Man, it was mad, but at least it was a beautiful distraction away from my loneliness.
Meeting An Angel
This was the story of my life for about 7 years. I cleared my undergrad and survived by the skin of my teeth. I got a job and also signed up for some evening masters classes 3 days a week. The remaining hours were shared between sleep and ministry. It the midst of all this, we started a drama unit at church and let me just say that it was God sent because, that is where I met an angel.
Gathoni walked in one day and asked to be casted in the play that we were auditioning for. I knew it there and then that this woman was the one I wanted to spend everyday of my life with. The only problem was that I was the only one who thought that. Either way, after many months of wooing this beauty, she finally accepted to date me and from then on, my life changed forever.
12 years later, she is still rocking my world. God just got me, and he got me a good one. I thank Him that He did not give up on me, even though I had given up on love a long time ago.
Don’t Give Up On Love
This right here is my testimony. It is not something some writer far away in Russia wrote, this is the life I lived and you know what, I’m not special even one bit.
I remember well during these 7 years walking in the CBD in the evenings, admiring couples in love. Seeing how they laughed and held each others’ hands, while the rest of us humanity never seemed to exist. I thought this was for them, never for me. I would never get anyone to love me like that. You had to know some people, and they were definitely not in my circles. Looking back now I know much better.
I stumbled upon this bible verse that I wish someone had shown me way back then. I want anyone who is waiting patiently to read this verse and read it over and over again.
Seek and read from the book of the LORD: Not one of these shall be missing; none shall be without her mate. For the mouth of the LORD has commanded, and his Spirit has gathered them (Isaiah 34:16)
This verse is so powerful and laden with wonderful promises. It means that there is a book somewhere that contains all the names in the world (both man & beast) and everyone there has a mate. Isaiah goes ahead to say that these are the words from the mouth of Lord, so that you may not confuse who has said this. And it is the spirit of the Lord that brings the two of them together. Not hookups or dating sites, not picnics or single meet-ups. It is the spirit of the Lord that gathers them together.
That is why I implore you, not to give up on love. No one will lack a mate. Just wait, and as you wait find some where to serve and give yourself to. Don’t go wondering if the love ship has left you, just wait on God, in His own time, He will bring you both together.
To God Be The Glory
We are disciples of Christ, passionate about serving God’s purpose to our generation. We met in 2009 at church, where Ben was directing a play. It was love at 1st sight.
We got married in 2014 in a beautiful wedding surrounded by our family and friends. God has blessed us with 3 kids, Imani, Tendai & Taji.
We live in Nairobi where we run our businesses and take part in serving our community for Christ